Today I am
thinking back to my post “Finding Peace on the Path: Learning to Let Go” and I
realize there is a major step that has to be accomplished before you can start
letting go of all the negative thoughts. Often the root of negative thoughts is
guilt. Guilt over actions done in the past, guilt for not being the person you
want to be and even guilt over things you had no control over.
Guilt and regret can be found at the
base of most negative thoughts. Regret is the seed of misery and guilt is the
root that starts to spread if you allow regret to take hold. These two partners
in crime do have some usefulness but it is very limited. When you do something
wrong you feel regret and then guilt, these are necessary to make you reflect
on what you did and why. Then you can
learn from your mistake but once you have taken a lesson from it you need to
release the regret and guilt by forgiving yourself.
Most of us are much more forgiving
to our friends and family than we to ourselves and this creates a lot emotional
turmoil. We need to remember that like our friends and family we too are only
human and not even we can be perfect! We deserve our own forgiveness as much as
our loved ones do and we cannot move on in our path and heal to be better until
we forgive ourselves.
No matter how much you beat yourself
up or replay an event in your head considering all you could have done
differently, no matter how much you hate yourself for something you have done,
nothing is going to change the past because what’s done is done. The only way
to make up for the past is to remember the lesson it taught you and take it
forward into the future with you and use it to prove to yourself and others
that you have learned your lesson and that you are not a terrible person.
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Image sources: http://nwso.net/2009/02/03/can-cheaters-be-forgiven-trust-love/, http://tinyheat.blogspot.com/2008/08/forgive-and-let-live.html, http://www.soapnights.com/2010/07/27/is-it-wrong-of-me-to-be-happy-that-my-ex-died-of-cancer/
If you feel guilt because you are
not the person you think you should be, wish you were or pretend to be to
others, it usually stems from repeated guilt over actions that do not match up
to your own personal morals or the morals you are allowing others to place upon
you. This is a far more common problem than people realize and often it is the
hidden source of our problems.
How then do we know if this is
really our problem? There are a few things we can ask ourselves. Do I feel like
I am never living up to other people’s expectations? Do I hide a lot of my
actions and life from certain people? If the answer is yes to both of the above
than more than likely you are either trying to live up to the morals of someone
else or you are not living up to your own.
Someone who lives up to their own
morals in general will not hide anything from anyone they love. There are
exceptions of course because sometimes our morals are drastically different
from those we love. (For example if your family is strict Catholic and against
homosexuality and your morals are more open minded).
Whenever we feel we must hide things
about ourselves or our actions it causes emotional stress. There are times
(like that mentioned above) where it may be necessary but for the most part it
is much healthier to find a way to travel along your path out in the open.
More coming soon on
this issue in “Calibrating your Compass”
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Guilt over things we had no control
over can ironically be some of the hardest to let go. This often stems from
having a bit (or full blown) Super Hero Syndrome. We feel as if we should have
seen something coming and done something to either prevent it or at least
soften the blow. Sometimes it’s even that we did do something but later we
think we should have done more. This guilt
over things you have/had no control over makes us feel we are unworthy to be
happy. We have to really let go of the guilt and realize it is NOT our fault. It
is not our responsibility to control the actions of others or to “save” anyone
else. Even if you really believe you should have done something or done it
differently it is the same as any guilt, use it to learn your lesson and then
forgive yourself.
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When
you forgive yourself and set yourself free from regret and guilt you are
empowering yourself to move further on your path and to become a wiser, happier
traveler.
You are only human and as humans our perfection is in our
imperfection and our ability to learn, forgive and keep moving forward.
Always remember you are worthy of your own forgiveness.